Sisters

I was so scared to go sleep last night. I new it was coming. I had suppressed all my feelings for the whole day and I knew it was coming.
I cried myself to sleep last night.
Everything from the past weeks and especially yesterday finally caught up with me.
It was a real acute pain. I didn't know if I'd be able to sleep in my room alone. I considered going and sleeping on my brother's floor, just to have someone else in the room with me.
But most of all...I miss my roommate Katie immensely. We're not just roommates anymore. We're sisters. We understand and accept each other completely.
And for the first time I wasn't able to go into my room and just talk with her. To just let the frustrations of the day out of my mind and into thinking space with another person. There's definitely a hole there now.
And I won't see her for such a long time.